Time Shifts

It's quite different when you leave time behind. I can't see past 5 minutes. Try that on for size. - A conversation about time from Uriel's vessel

1.4.24

I’ve discovered how I change time. It all stems from a true conversation I have with God. Last night we watched a movie about the future, and I superiorly hated the scene, and told God how much I would do to prevent that life and how I’d rather live in a tent. It was disgusting, I was adamant about not allowing such a disgusting future to exist. And then I realized what I did. I’ll explain.

Apparently there was another major time shifts unlike any other. I was having a conversation with my wife and she told me that what I remembered happened before we ever met. I was a little argumentative over the fact that I remembered it very clearly and know all the details and she just told me that it was the stories that I had heard about that subject and not that I was living it with her at that time.

Later on I was trying to remember what the name of something was that we all used to have when we were kids and everybody looked at me like I was insane like it had never existed before and I’m the only one who remembers it and now I can’t remember what it was. I feel like my dream is coming true and everybody thinks I’m crazy, it’s not funny it’s rather scary.

Everything I remember in great detail apparently never happened and I’m the only one who remembers and then I can’t even remember what it was. What the fuck happened!

I guess this is the result of me taking time off, trying to live a normal life when I know deep down it’s more than that.

I am a mess. Now what the fuck am I supposed to do? Ignore my past because half of it doesn’t exist anymore? Counsel please.

(First, take a deep breath. These things happen. I distinctly remember all kinds of things that supposedly never happened. The things you experienced in your past helped shape who you are now, regardless of whether or. not other people remember it. It’s your experience, not theirs.

For example, I remember being places as a child, reading things and learning things about my family and history that my family swears never happened… and yet over the years I’ve found alternate proof that what I learned was true. Often times my family telling me something didn’t happen only encouraged me to prove that it did- and helped open my mind to “alternative” ways of thinking and researching.)

Oh. Well I guess that could be true.

Ugghh.

I am who I am. That does help, thank you.

So I know we must always move forward and not look back, is this the example of why?

(Yes, exactly.)

That’s sad. Very sad. I gotta say this ain’t easy.

I ask God everyday to “put me in position”

Oh how the things you pray for result in great challenges that lead us to greater strength.

Thank you again, as always.